The pain

It’s been a year.

I thought the feelings,

Have disappeared,

But,

It does not seem so.

Why,

Do you have to come back?

Why,

Are you haunting me in my dreams?

Why,

Do the feelings still stay inside me?

Why,

Do you choose no one?

It’s just a dream,

Just a stupid dream.

So why,

Are you in my dream?

God,

Are you trying to tell me something?

Or is it me,

Who wanted to tell something important,

To myself?

I never wanted to experience it again.

I never wanted to feel it again.

I don’t want you to appear,

In front of me, again.

I don’t want to see you smiling in front of me,

And that smile,

Isn’t for me but someone else.

It hurts so much,

My heart aches and,

My mind empty,

Even though it’s been a year.

Why can’t this feeling disappear?

Why can’t I forget you?

I thought I can forget you.

It thought I had forgotten you.

But it does not seem so.