The snow fox

 Far, far away, there is a mountain called Black Pearl. It was a mysterious mountain. No human has ever gone into that mountain. Only fate can bring humans there.  Immortals and demons lived in that mountain. They are not bound by the cruel laws made for immortals. They were free to love, unlike the immortals in heaven and demons in hell.

This story is about a fox from Black Pearl Mountain falls in love. Her name is Dewdrop. She had fall in love with an immortal from heaven, which was forbidden.  But the immortal, Kevin, did not love her. He did not have the feel of love for he was an immortal.

When Kevin first descended from heaven, carrying a message to her guardian, she had fall in love. For hundreds of year dewdrop loved him. She rejected lots of immortals from black pearl, only wants him to be her lover. She have done a lot for him but he never once look at her.  On the day of his calamity, she finally woke up.

It was his guardian who told her that he will face a huge calamity. There are two groups of demon in hell, the superior side and the bad side. Hell was never a peaceful place. There was always fight over the throne. Kevin had helped the superior side and thus he had made a frightful enemy. The bad side had planned to kill him on the day he visit his house of worship.

Dewdrop dashed to the place where he was being ambushed when she received this dreadful news. When she arrived, he was injured but not badly and was surrounded by countless demons. Her heart bleeds and hurts badly when she saw his injuries. With all her powers she killed the demons but with a price. She was badly injured. The immortal looked at dewdrop and said,

“Why are you protecting me?”

The fox looked at him, expressing her deep love, “because I love you.”

“Why?” he asked again, his face expressionless. “You do know that I can never give what you seek from me.”

“I know. I know you can never love. I know that my love will never be accepted,” said dewdrop to the immortal.

“Is it worth it? Fox goddess from Black Pearl Mountain,” the immortal asked.

“To me it is,” said dewdrop. He came near her, wanted to steady her when she tried to stand up but she stopped him from doing it.

“Don’t. Your divine clothes will get dirty by my blood,” said dewdrop. She laid her back at the wall and looked at him. “will you remember me if one day I am not beside you anymore?”

She searched a pint of love from his eyes but there was none in his eyes. He still stared at her expressionless, coldly.  Then she finally understood. She knew that he will never love her. She then made a grave decision.  Loving an immortal was her own fault, not his. The blame was on her.  This long love of hers, she will soon begged him to wipe it out, hurts her so much.

“I am tired already. Tired from this one sided love,” said dewdrop. Kevin looked at her and saw her tired face. But he said nothing and waits for her to continue.

“Kevin, the immortal I love, can u please grant me one wish?” Dewdrop raised her head and looked at him.

“Speak,” said Kevin.

“You adore humans’ right? When they pray from their heart, you will grant their wish right? Then I pray to you from my heart, please let me forget you. Free me from this painful love. Free me from this feeling call love, so that I will not look at you, if we ever come across each other one day.”

He looked at her and he felt something foreign deep inside his heart. He quickly shakes it off and thought.  “She wishes to throw away her love?”

“I…will help you,” said the immortal.

He bit his finger and a blood came out. He moved his bitten finger to her chest. By using magic, his blood went into her heart. It was a gem called the loveless gem. “When you wake up, you will forget the love you have towards me. You will forget about me too and you never will fall in love again. Now sleep.”

When he knew that she had fell asleep, he lifted her up and left the place. Fire had long spread the building but strangely, the fire seemed to make way for them to leave.

Three hundred years later.

Two girls was playing at the flower garden, running and laughing, enjoying the pretty, sunny day.  The girl was dewdrop and her friend. They ran passed an immortal and never once did dewdrop looked back. The immortal stopped his pace and looked at dewdrop cheery face, his face expressionless but if you looked closely, you can see his lips curving up a little.

Mixer: chapter 8

Chapter 8: the dream. new friends

                “Acacia, Acacia,” I can hear someone whisper my name. The voice sounds like a man voice.

                “Acacia, the time has come,” says the man gently. “Open your eyes Acacia.”

                I open my eyes and sees that I am not in my room. “Where is this?”

                “The man chuckle and says, “In your dream Acacia.”

                “If this is my dream how did you come in? Who and what are you anyway?”

                Once again he chuckle, which makes me want to strangle him. I can’t see his face so well because he is surrounded by silhouette. 

                “Acacia, you are so extraordinary,” he says to me.

                “I’ll take that as a compliment,” my answer once again makes him laugh. “So what do you want from me?”

                “Acacia,” he suddenly sounds so serious, “the time has come. You must find a way to unlock your magic.”

                “I don’t know how to unlock it.” I say to him helplessly. “Tell me how.”

                “You will know soon. The answer will fall upon you on the night of the full moon,” after saying that, he disappears and I wake up from the dream. It’s 6am in the morning, time for me to prepare myself for school.

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When I arrive school, Loren is waiting for me. He gives me a form for application of library card. We wanted to talk a bit more but Loren has basketball practice. As I walks into my classroom, it turns out today is my cleaning duty. None of the girls and boys is doing their duty. I grab the broom and start sweeping the floor. Not long after I start sweeping the floor, two girls join me. Both of them have long blond hair and nice look.

“Hi, my name is Melissa and this is Fiona,” Melissa says to me when I am looking at them. “We saw you doing the duty yourself so we think of helping you out.”

“Thank you but I don’t want to trouble you,” I say to her.

“It’s ok, we don’t mind at all,” says Fiona. “Let’s start!”

It takes only five minute to clean the floor and I give them a grateful smile. Melissa and Fiona starts talking with me that I soon notice that they want to be my friend.

                “So, are we friends Acacia?” asks Fiona.

                “What do you think?” I counter back.

                They stare at me with confusion as I am not smiling. Then I finally can’t hold my grin, “If I don’t want to be friends with you then I won’t be standing here talking with you.”

They laugh and squeeze me tightly, which nearly knock away my breath. In my first and second lesson I realize that they are my classmates, such a coincidence. Since I have made another two friends, I gave up the idea of having a low profile and vow to have a great time.

I hang out with them during lunch time and when Loren joins our table for a while the girls are frozen on the spot. It is funny to watch their reaction. They fire a lot of questions at me after Loren went to join his group.

“Acacia, what kind of relationship do you have with Loren?” asks Melissa to me.

Before I have the chance to answer Fiona fire another questions, “Are you guys dating? Since when? How do you guys meet?”

“Whoa, one at a time, please. We are not in that kind of relationship and we are friends, normal friends. As for how do we meet…?”

I stop and look at them. They urge me to continue and I laugh, “You can say a book led us, leading us to meet each other. That’s all there is.”

They look at me with disbelief. “Girls, it’s true. If you don’t believe me go ask Loren.”

I watch them laugh. They remind me a lot of my human friends, Jane and May. How I miss them. I wonder how they are right now.

“Acacia?? Hello! Back to earth please,” says Melissa while waving her hand in front of me, “Something bother you?”

I shake my head and says, “You two remind me of someone, someone who I miss and will treasure forever.”

Melissa and Fiona look at each other for a moment and says in unison, “Is the someone you treasure human?”

“Don’t tell me you despise humans,” I say to them

                “No we don’t despise them but it is best if you don’t say that again,” says Fiona. “I don’t want you to get into trouble.”

                Notice the seriousness in her tone I ask, “Why is it? Will something happen if I say that I don’t despise human?”

                “You will be in the black list of the Black club. They despise human. I heard that their leader had killed a couple of human before and also those who like human.”

                “That sounds bad,” I say to them.  Here’s the bell. I’m going now so see you girls.”

                “Remember our warning Acacia. We don’t want you to be in danger.” Says Melissa as we separate. I wave to them and head for the library, as I have promised Loren to hang out with him in the library. I don't know why but i have a bed feeling about going to the library. I hope it's just my delusion.

Mixer: seventh chapter

Chapter 7: Wild Magic

                “Her magic is wild,” says my father. “She can do magic since she was one year old. This will bring danger to her so in order to protect her from harm; we decided to lock her magic by using this pendant. This pendant had the ability to lock her magic. It was given by a mysterious monk who once sheltered at my house.”

                “Her magic is so powerful, more powerful than any of us. The monk said that her magic is equal to the king and queen of Avalon. She is the strongest magic wielder, other than the king and queen. He said he fear for the safety of my child so he gave us the pendant. The pendant can allow my daughter to have a fraction of magic but to unleash all, I do not know. ”

                Mr. Drew is deep in thought and I notice that he keep touching his beard by using his left hand. Then he speaks, “This is strange. We usually obtained our magic from the mother of nature when we were five years old. But, there are some legends saying when evil rise, one person and beings who she selected to follow her, will be the ones who will protect us.”

                “Is the legend having anything to do with me? What is wild magic and what difference does it make? Will I be able to use my magic?” I ask them, lots of question swimming in my head.

                “Perhaps my dear,” says Mr. Drew. “As for your magic girl, I think it will be best if you attend a private lesson with me at night. I will ask for permission from the principal. Don’t worry, I won’t tell her. I’ll just make up some excuses.” He gives me a big grin, eyes twinkle with mischief. It seems like he enjoy playing a trick on the principal.

                “As for wild magic, I have read about it before in a book. It is an old magic and in order to unleash the power totally, you need to know your true name; name of birth given by Mother Nature. What you have now is just a fraction of it. That’s all I know.”

                Then he looks at my parents. “Do not worry. I will put a ward on my laboratory. If someone is coming, the warning bell will ring. Now can I have your permission to untie the pendant during lesson time?”

                My parents approve and left the school. Mr. Drew says he will give me the schedule in the nest lesson, which will be tomorrow. I glance at my watch and sees that the clock show a quarter past one, which mean I have already miss 15 minutes of my next lesson, English literature. Mr. Drew scribble something on a piece of paper and give it to me; telling me to give it to Mr. Anderson.

                As I walked into the class, I am shock that the mysterious guy who talked to me about the fairies painting is the tutor who is going to teach me English literature. He smiles at me and take the paper from my hand. Not only that, it seems like I am having the same class with Jason, Loren and also the girl, Jane. They are sitting on a same table. Loren waves at me, motion me to sit next to him. I obey with reluctance.

                “You’re late. Is it because of Mr. Drew?” Loren asks me as soon as I settle down next to him.

                “Yeah, he tested me and turns out I can’t do magic,” I says with a sad and frustrating tone. I can’t believe I am such a good actor.

Jane and Jason heard my conversation with Loren.

“I’m sorry to hear this, um…” says Jason.

“Acacia, that’s my name.”

“My name is Jason. Nice to meet you,” he says with a smile.

“So, you can’t do magic,” says Jane. “Sorry to hear that.”

It does not sound sorry. Instead it sounds like a snicker. Loren detects her snicker and shoots her a glare, with startle Jane. She shrug stare outside. The three of us just focus in what Mr. Anderson teaches for the rest of the time.  When the lesson ends, Loren asks for my face book and I give it to him. He told me to online later at 9pm and I just say “let’s see about it.”

I don’t know what possess me. I open my face book just as he request and we chat for like an hour. I can still remember what we chat in the internet. He said he want to see me first thing tomorrow at school. He said he will wait for me outside. He said…he said… that is what in my mind before I drift into deep slumber.

The beginning (Before mixer)

Chapter 1: Long ago

We are not human when we first met each other. I was an apprentice and you, deity of water. Something changed after I met you. Is this what human said love at first sight? I never believed in love at first sight, even though I worked with the red string grandfather (he’s career is similar to cupid).  It was spring time and I was on a vacation (yes, even gods have vacation).  I secretly went to human world without telling grandfather (he’s quite a fusser), for we aren’t allowed to go to the human world.

I choose Japan for I want to see the sakura petals dancing in the air. I was mesmerized by the scene that I accidentally bumped into a stranger. It was then my fate change.  Just a glance and an apology change my life entirely and the cause was him.

            “gomenasai, anatawa daijobu?” I said to him in poor Japanese. It means I’m sorry, are you ok?

            “I’m fine. Actually I’m not Japanese so you can speak to me using Chinese language,” `said the young man. “Are you alone? This is not good for recently there’s a murderer escaping from the prison and this area is currently dangerous.”

            “Thank you for the concern but I’ll be fine. “ I said to him with a smile.

            “I cannot leave such a lovely lady alone in this dangerous place, let me escort you home.”

            “I don’t live here Mister,” I said to him. “I live up there.” I pointed to the sky. He doesn’t look surprised. He looked at me again but this time he was observing me.  After a while he smiled with mischief and said, “Immortals aren’t supposed to come to the human world but I will not tell since I also break the rule.”

            I stared at him, inspecting his aura. Then I noticed that he was the god of water. I sighed with relieved and then out of my astonishment, I giggled. Then he also giggled. For the rest of the trip, we were together.

            The next day, in heaven, he came and visited me. I was writing the names of humans that were destined to be together when he came. He brought me some sweets, smuggled from the kitchen. We spent some of our time together since then.

            When did I start loving him, I do not know. Maybe it was when I bumped into him when we first met in the human world. I do not have the courage to say out my love, for fear he might reject me and worse that he might not come see me again.

            But I plucked my courage and confessed to him. He just stood there for a moment, with a look of astonishment in his face. I looked down and expected him to reject me. We were engulfed in a silent atmosphere for a moment. He then broke the silence by giving me a big hug, which shocked me at first then I cried and hugged him back.

            Our relationship was stable, until she broke it. Another apprentice like him but he rejected her, for he cannot accept her love for he loves me.  She was furious at me and swore that she will break us apart. She did it.

            The emperor was furious when he received news that me and him were together. We were captured and a meeting was held in the hall. We kneel in front of the emperor, our hands entwined. I saw the girl smiling triumphed at me. I knew the culprit was her but I did not blame her for we will be discovered sooner or later.

            “Deity of water and apprentice to the red string godfather,” bellowed the emperor, with empress sitting next to him. “Do you both know that you have broken the rule?”

            “Yes, we do.” Both of us replied back.

            “Then you are banished to the human world as punishment,” said the emperor without mercy.

            Some immortal wanted to save us but we shake our head, signaling them not to. To them this is a cruel punishment, for our years of training (xiu xing) will be gone. But to me and him, it is the best way. Even though we will forget each other, even though we will never meet again, there is still hope, even though it was small, hope that we will surely find each other in the human world.

            WE were sent to drink the soup made by grandmother who serve the hell king. her task is to cook soup which have the ability to make us forget our memory. We stared at each other, both of us holding a bowl of soup, which will wipe our memories. With one last look, both of us drank the soup and then we kissed. Our first and last kiss. Then we each went separately, ready to be incarnated. I cried went I walked that path and prayed that we will surely meet again.

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The Emperor was staring at the night sky when the empress calls for him.

“Is there something wrong?” she asks him but she receives no reply. Then it dawn to her. “You make the right decision dear. This is the only way for them.”

“I know, dear. I know,” says the emperor sadly.

“Dear,” sighs the empress, “They will meet again. You banished them so that they will free from the rule did you not? Now stop worrying and come to bed.

The emperor chuckle and says, “It seems to me everything I do cannot escape from you eyes. You sure know me well.”

The empress laughs, “I know you well because we have be together for centuries. It is impossible for me to not know you well.”

The emperor lifts his head, look at the stars with a compassion look and whisper in the air.

“They will meet again.” He said with confident. “First incarnation will be in ancient china. Second, they will be in the world of magic and lastly, in the modern world.”

Mixer: chapter six

Chapter 6: Locked talent

“Miss Pike,” Mr. Drew says with a grave tone, “I believe someone locked your talent in the depth of your heart.”

I breathe a sigh of relief. I thought he’s going to say I don’t have the ability to do magic. So my talent is locked inside my heart huh. This isn’t any worse than having no talent at all.

                “I would like to call for your parents right now to discuss this grave matter,” Mr. Drew takes out a piece of letter and pen and start writing. It just took him a few moments to write the content. He then seals the paper into an envelope and places it in the middle of a white circle drawn by a white chalk. It is drawn on a small desk next to his big desk.

                “To the Rory Pike household,” Is what Mr. Drew says. Poof! The letter was gone. I stare at the spot where the letter was laid a moment ago. Then I look at Mr. Drew. He chuckle at my bewilderment.

                Then a puff of white smoke appears near the window and as the white smoke slowly disappear, I see my parents standing there. Again I am so shock that once again I make my teacher laugh out loud.

                “You never saw this kind of thing before Miss Pike?” He asks me while trying to regain his control but he starts to laugh when he still see my mouth open so big. I quickly straighten my face and turn to face my parents.

                “Mother, father, Mr. Drew has something he would like to talk about,” I say to them.

                “Please have a seat,” says Mr. Drew while beckoning my parents to sit next to me. My parents sit on my both side. Both of them have a worry look.

                “Did she did something wrong?” ask my mother.

                I raise my eyebrow. Why all parents do always says this first sentence whenever they were call to see their children teacher?  I was about to say something to my mother but her glare make my mouth shut tight.

                “She did nothing wrong,” Mr. Drew says kindly to my mother. “I summoned you two to come is because of your daughter’s talent. Her talent is locked. Do you know about this?”

                My parents look at each other, and then they turn their gaze at Mr. Drew.

                “Yes Mr. Drew. We know about it. For it is we who locked her talent,” my father told Mr. Drew. I am stunned when I heard my father said they are the one who lock my talent.

                “Calm down Acacia, since you have awaken we planned to tell you this but we always hesitate to tell you. Now we shall tell you and Mr. Drew too,” said my father. “Mr. Drew, can we trust you on this?”

                “Yes you may but if you cannot trust me that much I will allow you to put a spell of silent on me,” says Mr. Drew. “Who knows someone might force me from talking about this secret.”

                “You are right. Forgive me Mr. Drew,” says my mother to Mr. Drew.

                “I understand. Better to be safe than sorry,” says Mr. Drew.

                My father then murmurs some chanting and a shimmer of light engulf Mr. Drew. The light is gone when my father stop chanting. “It is done.”

                “Before we begin, I shall make a ward around my lab, so that no one, other than the four of us here, can hear the conversation,” says Mr. Drew.

                Mr. Drew stands up and walks toward a cupboard at the back of his desk. He opens a jar which contains a pink powder. He notices my curiosity and said to me, “We will learn about this soon my dear.”

                Even though I am unsatisfied with the answer, I nod at him, trying not to be rude. He walks around the lab, chanting and pouring the powder, which later from a big square powder.

                “Now we shall begin,” says Mr. Drew after putting the jar back and cleans his hand.

                I look at my mother and father and see that their face is full of seriousness. I gulp. I rarely see their face like this. Only once did I see it. It was during the day of my awakening. The atmosphere around us have become severe and I wonder,

                What is the secret?

Mixer: fifth chapter

Chapter 5: A friend and the meeting

                The three of us stands there and no one is talking. Then Jane speaks.

                “What are you looking at? You never see a couple arguing?” she glares at me.

                I shrug and is about to walk away when Jason speaks. “Jane! I’m so feed up with you. We are not a couple. Since when do I start going out with you? Stop this nonsense. There are a lot of other boys who loves you more than I did.”

                “I don’t want boys other than you. You are special to me. I will not give up on you!” she is full of persistent. 

                I don’t care what they are talking about since it is not my business. I have walked a few steps when the boy, Jason, calls me. I turn back and say, “I will not tell anyone about this. Please ignore me and continue your conversation but not so loud for this is library. Good bye.”

                I left them on the spot without glancing back, though I know that the boy is staring at me and the girl’s killing glare at me too. I go outside, to the school garden, which is filling with spring flowers. I feel relaxed whenever I’m near flowers, or to be precise, when I am near the elements of nature.

                I found a bench and sit down. Behind the bench stands a huge oak tree. Its leaves dance when a warm breeze blows. I stare at the garden, taking in the beautiful scene. I was busy reading the fifth chapter of eon when a shadow looms over me. I frown and look up. The figure is the boy who lends me the book, Loren.

                “Hello there, it is almost time for lunch. Let’s go together,” he says to me with a friendly tone.

                My frown eases when I know that it is him. He is the first person who is kind to me, even if he called me an idiot. I reject his kind offer, “I’m sorry but I’m afraid I will not have lunch for the price is too high for me.”

                “Really? But they are not that expensive. Noodles and rice with vegetables only cost 2 dollar,” he says to me.

                “But during lunch I saw that a plate of noodles costs six dollar,” I tell him.

                “Ah. You must have when to the expensive footstall. That one is for those who are rich. Let’s go, I’ll treat you,” he urges me to go. I have no choice but to put away my book and follow him to the cafeteria.

                It seems like what he said is true. I have wandered off to the rich section. People stare when I enter the cafeteria but I know they are staring at him. I can even hear some of the girls whisper to each other.

“Hey, isn’t he Loren?” says girl one.

“No way! That Loren?” said girl two. “He is the one who is entitled the prince of Avalon and who have heard two elements calling to him?”

“Why is there a girl next to him?” ask girl number three.

“Loren doesn’t like to have girls around him but why is the newcomer walking next to him?” says girl number one.

“Argh! It is so frustrating!” wail girl number two.

It seems like I have become famous in this school. I sighed heavily. My life is going to be very entertaining starting today. As we both order our food (Loren was shocked when he saw that I ordered two plates of spaghetti), Jason and Jane come into the cafeteria.

Jane is still clinging to Jason and Jason is trying to shake her off him. They then stop and look at me when they notice me. Loren notices their stare and turn around to face them. He then smile when he sees it was Jason.

“hey Jason. How’s the trip to your grandmother place?”

“It was quite fun,” says Jason. “How about you?”

“Same old same old.”

They chit chat comfortably for a moment and I receive nothing but a cold glare from Jane. I wonder what I had done to make her feel mad at me. I quickly grab our lunch and calls for Loren, so that I can get away from that girl’s deathly glare.

I ask Loren to talk about himself while I gobble down the food. He tells me that he is the prince of Avalon and he is the t-stage of calling being. This surprises me. I expected him to lie to me but then I remember that fairies don’t like to lie.

When he asks about my background, I hesitate. I don’t know whether I should talk about my differences; my specialty.  Then I remember that Mr. Drew calls for me to meet him in his laboratory. I quickly apologize and tell him about my meeting and he tells me the location. Then I leave him alone in the cafeteria due to lack of time. He forgives me, smiles and says goodbye. It takes me 2 minute to arrive at Mr. Drew laboratory. I walk in and says hello to him.

“Miss. Pike,  please have a seat,” he gesture a chair which is in front of him. I sit down and look at him.

“I call you here to inspect you,” he stops talking and look at me for a while, then he continue, “by magic. Is it ok to you?”

“May I know why sir?” I ask him due to curiosity.

“I want to see do you have the talent of magic. I have never encountered pure beings or mixers which cannot do magic.  I would like to inspect you about this cannot so magic issue of yours. May I?”

I give him my permission and he place is left hand on me. His hand which is place on my forehead glows when he murmurs some words which is strange to me. Sweat appears on his forehead and his hand retreat from my forehead. He looks at me with a grave expression. His stare makes me uncomfortable.

“What have he inspected in me?” this is what I thought when I sees his grave expression.

let me go

let me go if you don't love me.

let me go if the one you love,

is someone else.

let me go for i don't want to see ur sadness.

let me go for i don't want to see your agony.

let me go for i don't want,

to see your eyes not seeing me but her.

let me go if it's hard to choose.

let me go for  i don't want to see u in sadness.

let me go for it is the right thing to do.

let me go for it is the best way,

let me go and,

we'll meet again someday,

in this place,

this secret place of ours,

with our other half.

if this is love

you made a choice,

which is a mistake.

for it makes my heart ache.

you didn't give any reasons,

and i watch u leave,

without hearing your explaination

if this is not the end,

if i still love you,

if i still believe,

that you are the only one for me,

if you csn hear me,

but you give up.

then this is your love.

if this is love,

then it's not fair.

you dont have to make sence,

for i can leave peacefully.

if i make your wish come true,

if i give you my blessing,

it does not mean that,

i did not see our love as an act,

that is my way of letting you go.

this is my way of saying,

i love you.

because, love

I  listen to our love song.

Oh,the sweet melody,

oh, the inspire words,

of our love song.

Listen to our song,

my shyness appeared,

but only for a moment,

for sadness engulfed me,

the next instance.

Both of us,

sometimes forgot,

that we still love each other.

because love,

grow up easily,

both of us acted childishly.

because love,

are from there,

so we always linger there.

because love,

aren't filled with only sadness,

so we both feell happy.

because love,

will make us easily go mad,

that's why we are still young.

I listen,

this love song of ours.

sometimes,

both of us forgot,

that we still,

love each other.

no title

if earth stops moving,

what remains in that time,

will be our dreams,

or maybe what we want.

in that certain time,

our feelings lingers.

sadness,

anger,

happy,

shy,

loneliness,

and many others.

please take my hand and,

lets go together,

to that fairy tale,

we both create.

freedom

our path were not the same,

as they are two years ago.

my feelings too,

are not the same,

as long ago.

even though,

the darkness is untorelable,

even though,

my heart still bleeds.

even though,

i still miss you,

even though,

i am still lonely,

i still want to thank you,

for if not of your decision,

i will not be able to be,

as free as a dove.

my real freedom.

your gentleness

I thank you for your gentleness.

You hold your love to me,

And at the same time,

I hold my love for you too.

But what can I give you,

other than my love?

I am only someone,

Who you forgot,

Who you dream of.

I don’t know why,

I want to be with you,

But I cannot do that,

For I don’t want to hurt you.

Once again,

I thank you for your gentleness.

I haven’t decide which road,

Should I take so,

I will not ask you,

Nor let you,

To be by my side,

Until I have decide,

What I want,

What I desire and,

Which road I should take.

We were young,

When we explored that deep,

Deep forest near our house.

In there,

We discovered,

A lonely mirror.

Years has passed and,

We are now teenagers.

We are separated since that day.

Now,

We are in a place,

Where you/me are not beside me/you.

Your place in that world,

Has the same sky as mine.

My place in my world,

Has the same scenery as my world.

We sang in our different world.

Forever,

Even endlessly,

I can hear your melody,

Even though you are far away.

We believe that,

Our song will not disappear,

And will reach each other.

Will I be able to sing always?

This melody is for you,

Receive it,

Send it,

Before you disappear.

Someday,

I believe our song,

Will reach each other.

Will we be able,

To sing our song forever?

Until our song reach each other?

Always,

I hear,

You faint melody,

That we had sing for eternity.

Someday,

We will be free,

From this cursed mirror.

We hope and dreamt,

the mirror that separate us,

Will one day shattered,

By our determination,

And our love for each other.